1/28/24

Gotta catch up on these stupid entries!!! Ugh, anyways, today I got woken up at 9:30 because my mom wanted me to go to church. I thought we were going to Cowboy Church but apparently not. So we went to Egypt Mills. My dad met us there because he was at my grandma’s since Morgan had to go to the airport this morning and couldn’t get her ready. He was a little late. We sat behind Ruth and Junior and Ruth was talking to to me about SEMO. The service was kind of boring. The sermon was about a bunch of demons and one lonely demon or something, I don’t remember. I hate to say it but I was on my phone for most of the boring parts. Anyways, once that was over we went home.

I played some Minecraft because that’s what I’ve been doing the past couple a days. I do this thing where I look up Realm codes, join them, and just goof off. It’s probably a waste of time. But eventually my mom and I got ready to go to Nana’s because we were going to try and seal off the closet. We left and by the time we were almost to Nell Holcomb, my mom realized she forgot her phone so we had to go back. But then we were back on track.

We went to Schnucks first to get some food to keep over there. It took a while for me to pick stuff out but I got a Stromboli, sourdough bread, garlic butter, ketchup, salt and pepper, chips, frozen stuff, and probably some more stuff. So I had a good little restock. When I was waiting in line to check out, my mom left to get some cherry chip cake mix for Aunt Rach’s birthday since she has that little inside joke with dad but the line started moving and I almost had to pay on my own until my mom showed back up in the nick of time. That was a little scary. Just kidding, I had it under control.

After that we went to Nana’s and got to work. My mom honestly did all the closet work. She was putting this leather fabric stuff on the walls to cover them. I guess it’s a temporary fix. While she did that I finally took down my Christmas tree and lamp. I also set the two black mouse traps with some cheese my mom brought. Put one on the food cart and one on the ground by my bed. My dad also eventually showed up to Nana’s. I made a bacon ranch Hot Pocket and ate it before we left cause I hadn’t really eaten much today.

After we left we went back home and I tried playing Terraria because I hadn’t played it in forever, but it was funner thinking about playing it than actually playing it. Then I decided to go shoot my Henry, but once I got down to the building it was way too muddy out by the target area so instead I decided to squirrel hunt again. I put Opal and Chowder in my dad’s office and that took forever because they were not cooperating. Then I walking up into the woods with my gun.

I was also wearing crocs and my new pants so I wasn’t really prepared for hunting. I heard some squirrels after about twenty minutes of slowly walking the path. I heard/saw at least three in the same area. The only one I shot at was one that came out of an opening in a tree in front of me. It should’ve been an easy shot but I somehow missed and it climbed all the way up in the tree. I took another shot but missed again. I guess I just absolutely suck at shooting. But yeah I was probably in the woods for another hour or so. I also saw a deer and what looked like an armadillo or turkey or something. It was at the bottom of a ridge and I was kind of hurrying to get down there because if it was an armadillo I’d want to shoot it. I ended up slipping and falling on my butt, getting my newish pants dirty. And then I couldn’t even find the animal once I got down there. Then I was about done and was gonna leave but my dad was home now and his car was at his building and I thought it’d be kinda awkward I’ if I just came waltzing down a field with my gun so I waited around for a good 25-30 minutes and he was still down there so I just left. While I was waiting I was whistling back to a really pretty-singing bird. I think it was a white-throated sparrow. When I got down there, my dad was leaving the office. Apparently he was talking to Beck and had me talk to her after he saw my getting close. That’s about it.

Then we went up to the house and my mom had tortellini made. Janell was also home by now. Eventually I checked my camera for Nana’s house because I set the camera up facing one of the mouse traps and THERE WAS A MOUSE IN THERE. Kinda crazy, I finally caught the mouse that keeps pooping on my pillows. After all that I did my chemistry and SW121 homework, watched a really sad episode of The Walking Dead where Negan killed Glenn and Abraham, and went to bed.

Today was a 6/10.

1/27/24

Today I guess I really didn't do much in the morning, I don't really remember. I know that at 1:30 my dad and I went to a gun show at the Osage Center. My dad said he'd seen a sign for one and he kind of wanted to go to it. So we were trying to figure out where the gun show was because he thought it was at the Show Me Center but I looked it up and it was actually at the Osage Center. So yeah we drove there. 

1/16/24

I don't know if it's going to be feasible for me to try and keep writing every day. I keep forgetting. But I'll keep trying I guess. Today was my first day of second semester at SEMO and I surprisingly woke up really early just on my own. I think I woke up around 6:30, and then I tried to fall back asleep but I couldn't so I just listened to music. Then I got out of bed and got dressed and ready at 8:30. My mom made me a bacon egg and cheese sandwich on my grandma's homemade bread and that was really good. I parked my car in the garage last night so after I ate, I went ahead and left. Janell and my mom left at the same time I did because they had a hair appointment at Amy's. Also Max left a giant shit pile right in the center of the garage, can't forget that detail.

The roads were still kinda icy from the snow a couple days ago but they weren't too bad. I just went to Normal Street to try and find parking because my first class was in Grauel, and luckily there was parking on the street. I don't know why more people don't park there. But I ended up getting there pretty early so I just sat in my car and listened to my old playlist that has all of those Fountains of Wayne songs on it.

Eventually I went to my first class at 9:30, which was Helping Skills for the Human Services. This morning I put on Crocs without thinking about it and I realized when I was walking to class that I probably should've worn closed-toe shoes because I got snow in my shoes. But anyway I got to class and sat in the back next to an Indian guy. There were only like, four guys in the class, so that was kinda crazy. The professor for that class seemed pretty nice, too. She brought muffins or something but they were at the front of the class so I didn't see them. She was kinda sad not many people ate them. But yeah, once that class started she talked about herself and apparently she worked at a juvenile detention center or something. Then we went over the rubric and she made us introduce ourselves to someone else in the class and then introduce that person to the rest of the class. The Indian guy next to me asked to be partners so we were. We had to ask them their full name, hometown, major, favorite food, and something you don't know about them. So I told him my name, that I lived here, I like ravioli, and I was on my high school's bowling team. Then he told me his name, but I had to keep asking him to repeat it. It was like, Ismael or something. I don't remember. And I think I pronounced his last name wrong. I pronounced it Cymbal, like the instrument. But yeah, I guess he likes burgers and street racing. That was kinda all that happened in that class. We got out like, 45 minutes early, so that's cool.

I went back to my car to sit down and heat up because my next class wasn't till 11:00 and some black guy asked me for directions to the International Village, which I didn't know, but I figured it might be near the Greek Village so I pointed him that way. Hopefully I helped him, guess we'll never know. After sitting in my car for thirty minutes I got out to go to Scully where my Food and Nutrition class was, and on the way there I ran into Mack and Zach Robinson. And I called them Mack and Zach when I saw them which was kinda cringy. But yeah we talked for a bit, I told Mack that I think I'm in her chemistry class because I'm creepy and check the people who are in a class with me on Canvas. And I told them I'm a nursing major now, so fun. And then Zach told me Eli was mad at me because I kept leaving him on delivered, which is true, but right now, Eli's the one who's left me on delivered for two weeks.

Anyways, I got to Scully and went inside. At this point my toes were numb. But yeah I found the nutrition class on the top floor and went in. I was scared most people would be online and I'd be the only in-person person but the class was actually packed. I sat in the back near the door again next to some foreign girl. That class was honestly pretty boring. Jackson Haertling was in it, which I didn't know. Oh yeah, Audrey Daniel was also in my first class. I didn't talk to her or anything, though. But yeah in nutrition we introduced ourselves and told our majors. The majority were nursing majors, but I was the only guy from that major. I found out Jackson is a psychology major. Interesting. But that's basically it.

After that class got out I went to Brandt to use the restroom because that building is where I always use the bathroom. Then I made my way back to Grauel for my Rhetoric and Critical Thinking class, which I was kinda dreading because Sam Stuart was going to be in that class and I figured it would be awkward. I met Sam in the building and said hi and he figured out that we were in the same class, so we ended up sitting next to each other in the classroom, and it was kinda awkward. This isn't really the kind of class where you can talk, so Sam was just on his phone and I was just doing nothing. But it wasn't that bad. The professor was this old lady named Mrs. Seabaugh and she was honestly really boring. A full 75 minute long class would feel like forever with her. Luckily she let us out really early. Sam asked her after class if she was from the north and she said she wasn't. Sam said he was trying to get on her good side. But yeah then we went our separate ways and I went to the library to right some entries.

1/14/24

Things that Happened Today

- janell and i went to town

- parents got mad

- went to kohls, tj maxx, petco, target, mall

- started snowing when we were at shoe dept

- had turkey and stuffing

1/15/24

Things that Happened Today

- went outside in the snow

- went to the creek

- rode 4-wheeler

- shot revolvers

- vacuumed room

- watched walking dead

- janell cleaned her room

1/10/24

Today I think I woke up at around 10 or 10:30 or something. Today my mom was going to Cape for some errands and stuff so I went with her.

The first place we went was McDonald's because I didn't eat anything. My mom had a free thing for 6 piece nuggets for her birthday yesterday and she let me use that since she didn't want anything. I also got a coke. So that was good.

After that we went to Dr. Gibbons office because my mom's contacts had come in. I stayed in the car for that though. My mom said someone in there guessed that she was Joan and the lady said she should buy a lottery ticket for guessing right. Don't know why I included that, just a little detail I remember.

After that we went to First State Community Bank to close my account because I never use that account. I had 150 dollars in it that I got out in cash so that's good. I think all of my money in that account is because they give you a couple of dollars for every A you get on your report card.

Then after that we drove to SEMO and my mom showed me where the bus used to drop her off at Scully. We went here because I was going to see where my classes were going to be. My mom just dropped me off, though, because she had to go pick up prescriptions or something. But yeah my Scully class was nutrition and it was actually on the highest level (4th floor). All of my other classes were also on that side besides Grauel, but I didn't go to Grauel because I already know that building pretty well. But yeah I have like four classes in Magill and one in Rhodes. Then I walked to Academic and my mom picked me up on Normal Street. I also had to point an Indian guy in the direction of Dempster because he asked me for help.

After that we went to Last Mile Liquidators because my mom's been wanting to go there for some reason. I actually think she said she wanted to go there to look for shelves for my closet at Nana's. It was kinda nice in there. It's at that new building on Williams Street. They have a bunch of overstock furniture that's still boxed and is marked down by 20-30 percent. Maris apparently works in there and I said bye to her when we were leaving. Also they have a doodle or poodle or something that was just walking around the store. But yeah in the store I actually found a TV stand that I really liked and ended up getting. It's definitely an upgrade from the one I have at Nana's right now. Some scrawny kid picked up the box that the TV stand was in and made it look like nothing. My mom was really impressed but I just figured it wasn't that heavy. Then when we got to Nana's and I tried picking it up, it was actually really heavy. I underestimated that kid.

But yeah we didn't go to Nana's right after, we actually went to Buffalo Wild Wings. I got a cheese curd burger and my mom got a normal cheeseburger. It was reallly good but really filling. They were also playing the Blues game so I got to see them lose to the Panthers. But yeah that's about the end of that. Always fun.

Writing about this day makes it feel like forever, it just keeps going. After BWW we went looking at car lots for either Janell or my mom. We went to Morlan first and my mom was looking at a blue Ford Escape that she thinks Janell might want. I don't know why my mom wants to get Janell another car instead of herself. Janell's car is the car the keeps breaking down, but she picked out her shitty car and knew that Mini Coopers were unreliable. She can't just expect to get a new 30,000 dollar car when hers breaks down. So I think she should get my mom's Equinox and my mom should get a new car. The Equinox is probably more than Janell deserves anyways. But I guess my mom's a better man than me. But yeah my mom even had a dealership guy come out and unlock the car. The car was over 25,000 dollars so it was out of the price range. Also the dealership guy told my mom she should get a car instead of Janell because of the prices right now. I didn't really understand his logic and how it mattered (actually I guess he meant we keep the Equinox and give it to Janell [actually wait I still don't understand]).

Whatever, after that we went to another dealership (Coad Chevrolet) and looked at car that I actually thought looked nice. It was a light green Chevy Trailblazer, which you wouldn't think would be that cool, but it was. AWD, dual exhaust, blacked-out logos, tinted windows, carbon accents. A dealer guy, Landon, came out and unlocked it. This one was over 32,000 dollars so I that's still pretty pricey. But it was nice. Also my mom got locked in the backseat because it had a child safety lock.

After that we drove to some other lots but nothing caught our eyes. Then we went through the car wash because my mom had a coupon and then we went to Nana's to unload the TV stand. Then we went home.

Once I got home I went and found a kennel for Chowder because he's getting fixed tomorrow. I got the kennel, some blankets, and dog car seat cover and put all of that in my car. For the rest of the evening, I spent some time outside, something that I should do a lot more. I listened to the entire album of The Stranger while walking through the creek and sitting on a rock with Opal and Chowder (Max was there too, just not really sitting with me) out by the little waterfall area behind the creek. It was nice. I also fed Orange Man on my way back to the house. Then I put Max and Chowder in the garage so Opal and me could go on a Mule ride. Chowder and Max don't like riding the Mule so it's easier putting them up. My dad got home when I was just pulling out of the garage in the Mule and I think he also went down there and fed the cat after I did. Orange Man eatin' good tonight. But yeah I just drove around the woods and to the top of Fornkohl's Hill.

Then I went inside and ate. We had breakfast for supper, so pork sausage patties and a fried egg. Janell also got home just in time for supper. For the rest of the evening I didn't do much. Talked with the family and discussed bringing Chowder to the vet. My mom said she'll also go with me to make sure everything gets done. I could do it myself, but I feel better that she's going along. Also hopefully she'll pay the vet bill instead of me. If she does, I'll eventually repay her. Really hoping she does.

But yeah then I played some Fortnite and wrote this thing. I also cleaned my entire room. It desperately needed it. It's almost 2 AM and I feel like I've been writing forever, so I put it in a Word document and this passage alone is basically the equivalent of a FOUR PAGE ESSAY. That's longer than all the essays I wrote in EN100. No wonder it feels like I always spend so much time writing.

But yeah I gotta go to bed. Today was like a 7/10 just cause it felt like I did so much.

1/9/24

Holy shit if I don't get my act together I'm gonna kill myself. I was supposed to leave my unmotivated self in 2023. I told myself I was gonna write every day of the new year and I've been procrastinating like little bitch and I've already missed the first nine days of 2024. But don't worry I'm gonna go back and fill them in, they just won't be super detailed because I'm gonna have to remember or look at my maps and search history to see what I did that day, but trust me, I'm gonna do it. I'll actually write every day from here on out.

Anyways, today was my mom's birthday. Last night, I could not fall asleep AT ALL. It was like, 2:30 when I started trying to go to sleep and I couldn't, I was just laying in bed listening to music until past 4 AM. My sleep schedule has been SOOO off. Like, way more off than it's ever been. I've pulled four all-nighters this break. Over the summer I only stayed up all night once. That's crazy. So even though I set my alarm to 9:00 I woke up at noon. And then I fell asleep until 1. Also my dad was being annoying as all hell because for some reason he thinks I'll want to get out of bed when he's like that. No, it just makes me want to kill myself. But luckily, I had my new headphones and they work perfectly for blocking out noise, so that dealt with that. I also voice memoed him acting like that to always remember it (because it's such a nice thing to remember). And yeah, I know I should've been out of bed by then and I wanted to get up, but I am not giving him the satisfaction.

But yeah I was eventually out and about. Not really about though. I stayed inside basically all day, which sucks, but it's not like there's anywhere to go. I went out with Chowder for a bit. After a while my mom got home and I got to say happy birthday, but she was tired and took a nap for a while in her room. Queen deserves it. I played some Stardew Valley because for the past couple of days I've been into it again. I guess Janell got home sometime in between 3 and 4 and she was all mad because we were going to go out to eat tonight for mom's birthday, but the Craigmiles, mammy and papa, and Pam were also going to be there. Apparently she wanted it to be just us four. I didn't really mind either way. I just like going out to eat.

So yeah we all started getting ready to leave a little before 5 and I got a shower, brushed my teeth, all the works, and Janell was still in bed, so we basically had to drag her out to go. Janell was honestly being not very nice today. Like, it was my mom's birthday and Janell still kept trying to get her way. Like girl, it is not your day. But we eventually left and had a very awkward car ride. It didn't start out that way, but Janell kept on nagging and my dad kept backing Janell up. That's also a bad habit my dad has. It seems like he backs up Janell more than his wife. I was literally the only one trying to keep everything optimistic and saying it'd be fun. But yeah Janell kept calling June and Pam bitches and stuff and saying all this other stuff and eventually my mom started crying and it was actually the saddest thing ever. My mom literally never cries and there should be no reason she has to cry on her birthday. I'm crying just thinking about it and I almost cried then. Finally Janell apologized after I told her to, and she ended up apologizing several times. My dad never really did, but I guess he wasn't really making the claims or anything, but he was supporting Janell. But yeah it was awkward the rest of the way there.

We went in and most of the other people were already there. For some reason they'd assigned seats and of course they decided to put me next to Ella, because for some reason she was going to be there. So I was across from Connor and had Janell on my other side. I was kinda surprised Connor was there, but I guess he was on his break from Buffalo Wild Wings.  And luckily things loosened up once we got seated. I didn't end up talking to Ella or anything but literally I do not know her, I shouldn't be expected to. But yeah it ended up going good. I got ravioli carbonara and zuppa toscana for my soup. The soup was a little grayer and weirder looking than normal, but still good. Then for dessert, June got a chocolate lasagna cake and gave me a slice, and my mom got the zeppoli Italian doughnuts and I also ate one of those. The ride home was normal, luckily. The rest of the night was also normal. I talked to the fam, played some Fortnite and Stardew Valley, and started writing this entry. Also, this post has literally taken me thirty minutes to write. I feel like that's longer than normal.

But yeah I was hoping today would be better than it was, but I'd give it a 5/10.

1/8/24

Today was the aftermath of an all-nighter so I was up early. This was also Janell's first day back to school, so I started trying to get ready when she was getting ready.

I didn't really end up doing much, but I felt like cooking something, so after Janell and my dad left (he took her because her car is still acting up) I tried making some poutine. For some reason cooking always drains me so much and once I'm halfway done with the dish I just wish I'd never have started and it was that way with this. And literally all I was actually making was the gravy. But the butter took forever to melt, and the broth took forever to boil, everything was taking forever. Also I realized I probably made 6 times as much gravy as I needed. But yeah I finished it up, air fried some crinkle fries, and got out some weird like, uncured mozzarella balls or something. They tasted kinda weird. So I put it all together and went outside to eat it, because poutine tastes best when eaten hot in a cold setting. It actually tasted really accurate to authentic Canadian poutine. Didn't exactly look the part, but that doesn't matter.

Making that was the highlight of the day and after that I did nothing. I know I fell asleep at around 3 pm and my dad caught me sleeping and literally got so mad. He hates when other people take naps but apparently he's allowed to nap whenever he wants. Then he made me go help him put a tire in the back of his truck even though he definitely could've done it himself. And the tire also rolled out when he rolled it up there and he got mad at me.

I was going to have to pick Janell up to go to an appointment at 3 but my mom was off by then so she did it. I was kinda looking forward to it, though, because I wanted to get out of the house. But they brought me home Chick-fil-A afterwards so I was more than happy. Then I played some Stardew Valley and that was the end of my day.

4/10. I need to get out of the house.

1/7/24

I feel like today was actually decent. I slept at Nana's last night and ended up waking up early (6:45) even though it was past 4 AM when I went to bed. But I stayed up because I wanted to leave before one of Nana's helpers got there. So I got ready, left, and went to McDonalds. I got a Sausage McMuffin and a free hashbrown with some rewards points. So good.

When I got home, the garage door to the house was locked for some odd reason so I had to go back to my car and get the house keys. Everyone was still asleep inside. Also I guess Addi had spent the night because her car was outside. I went upstairs and played Minecraft for and hour or so. I think my Gamepass glitched or something because it should've gone away by now, but whatever.