2/25/26

Not too much happened today. Today was my latest class but I still had to be there at 9 AM. So I got up, got ready, and went to that.

It was the maternal-newborn lecture class, so it was pretty boring. My nose started running out of nowhere, so I checked my bag for some allergy medicine and all I had was Benadryl. I knew it could make you drowsy, but I had part of an Alani this morning, so I figured one pill wouldn't be too bad. Well, about thirty minutes after that I was dozing off. So it was pretty hard to stay awake. I had to get up a couple of times to go to the bathroom and splash some water on my face and stretch. In class we did the APGAR group project and took a quiz over neonates at the end. So I stayed awake for those parts.

I went back to Nana's after that and fell asleep on the couch at around 2 PM. During that nap I had the craziest dream that I guess was Benadryl-induced. Here is the dream that I wrote down right as I woke up because it was so surreal:

First part I was really into horses. There was a place by June’s house with horses and Lou Ann’s house was also near there. I kept driving by to see the horses and one time Lou Ann saw me and stopped me. She had a wad full of cash because she’d just given piano lessons to someone. She was there with someone else and they went out to my car with me in it and started messing with this thing I had on my hood, and it was doing all this stuff. It was like a speedometer on the dashboard of my car that could control a covering on my windshield.

Second part of the dream, our family was on a vacation and had a hotel in Texas. I woke up one day and my family was gone. I went outside and walked along the road in the desert until I got to an intersection with a billboard that said “Massachusetts that way” with an arrow. There were all sorts of metal painted cacti around this intersection and a billboard with a bunch of brochures. I thought about trying to hitchhike with any of the cars that were passing, but then I called my mom and asked what our plan was today and she got kind of mad that I asked that, but what I meant to ask was where they all were.

Third part, I ended up at Sarah’s house by myself somehow, and eventually all of her kids showed up. I remember they were doing some weird stuff to me, like Lydia was braiding my hair into some weird hairstyle or something. Then Johnny showed up and I remember having the hairstyle when he got there. He couldn’t talk very well because he’d just been to some weird religious cult thing where they had to remove some of his bones, and they took some of his teeth. But it was something that he wanted to go to, but he felt ashamed to talk about it.

The fourth part of the dream, I was at the religious place. Janell and my dad were also there. It was in a big room that was kind of like Elk's Lodge with tables and chairs and they started serving food. It was really vibe-based here. In remember Janell was acting a little off and my dad saw that and got mad. You really had to fit in with everyone. There was some phrase they used to indicate when someone wasn’t acting like they should, but I forgot. My dad was kind of into this religion, I was pretending so my vibe wouldn’t be detected. They started serving food and I went to get some. I went to break off a piece of sausage to put on my plate, but ended up putting lettuce instead. I was really struggling to serve my food. But I got it and ate it, and then it got even weirder.

The fifth part involved people from my nursing cohort as well as Adventure Time. I think the food we ate was drugged, because cracks started forming in the room that the religious cult was in, and lot of people escaped. I was one of them, and I started running, along with some other people. Some people from my nursing cohort like Noelle were following me, but we were all being chased by something and they couldn’t keep up. Then I was somehow in Adventure Time, but I was using powers from Terraria, and I started chasing Princess Bubblegum, it was all weird from the drugged food. I eventually made it back to the religious room where they had cots all out on the floor and Jayden and some others from my nursing group were there. They’d also escaped but came back to the room. And that was it.

So that was the dream, it doesn't sound that different than any other crazy dream, but it felt different. It felt like such a long and surreal dream. So I woke up from that at around 4:30 PM and went out on the porch to write it down in my notes app. I didn't really do much else that evening, just watched YouTube, probably played Terraria, then watched some Modern Family, made some red beans and rice and the beans were still hard, so that wasn't too good. Then I took a nice bath and listened to music, then finished my homework after that, brushed my teeth, took some melatonin, and went to bed before midnight on the couch.

So pretty good day I guess, but not really. All I did was go to class and have a trippy dream. 3/10.

2/24/26

Today I had a simulation day for my maternal-newborn clinical, so I got up at 6 AM, got ready, studied for maybe a minute, and left because we had to be there by 7:00.

I got to SEMO and went up to the second floor where they were meeting, and the first thing we did was take a "ticket to class" which was a twelve question quiz that we had to get at least an 8/12 on to participate today. And she also said if we fail this, we fail the whole clinical. So I studied for several hours for this yesterday, so I was kind of confident, but when we got the quiz, I was so scared. I felt like I didn't know any of the questions. I was one of the last people to finish, and I ended up getting a 9/12 somehow. But I had to guess on some. The questions were like, which communication method should you use, what's the breathing pattern for compressions, where should the resuscitation leader stand, and none of this was what I studied. My watch gave me a notification that I had a high resting heartrate while taking it.

But after that was done, we went to the assessment lab, some lady talked to us for a while, she put us into groups (we were group 2), and then we went to the stations. There were three stations, one for delivery, one for NRP after delivery, and one for SBAR. So we did the delivery one first with Dudley, then the NRP one with the other lady. For that one, we practiced listening to a manikin baby's heartrate and there was this duck with a hat IV stand in the room that I was obsessed with. We also had to give breaths to the little baby. Then SBAR was just working on some papers and examples. I started feeling sick in the middle of this and left to go take a dump. Don't know what was up with that. Maybe because we had to do check-offs at the end of the day today and I was nervous. We started check-offs eventually and Paige said she'd do them with me since I didn't have a partner, but then Panashe said he'd be my partner even though he was also Zach's partner. The check-offs took forever, each group took like 20 minutes and there were probably 12 groups. So we were waiting for over an hour. Panashe and Zach went, and I was gonna go after them so Panashe could just go back-to-back, but Tanya said she had work, so I let her go and me and Panashe had to wait another 20 or 30 minutes. So it was around 12:30 by the time we went, and it went pretty good. I was really nervous, but I didn't do that bad. She asked the four pre-birth questions, then we had thirty seconds to set up the room, then the baby was born, and they had this manikin baby all covered in this vernix stuff, Panashe did most of the stuff in this room and I was just standing there. Then we went to the other room and I did the breaths and the MRSOPA stuff while Panashe did the heartrate. And that was basically it, we passed. Then we went and had to fill out some other forms afterwards for a while, and we were out of there before 1 PM.

the only picture of the duck on all the internet

After class, I went to Nana's and slept from 2 to 4:30 on the couch, played Terraria, and then my mom brought some sushi here after calling. So that was yummy. She also brought some McDonald's chicken nuggets from my dad. Then I just played some piano and goofed around a bit until it was time for work, and I left for that at 6:15.

I was surprisingly the only transporter tonight. Usually Rylee would be here or someone who's training. But it was just me, and it luckily wasn't very busy. Just some ER transports, nothing crazy. But this was my first time back on the neuro floor on the fourth floor. I guess they finally got done with the renovations and opened it back up. So that'll be different, they've been working on that probably since October. And it looks basically the same up there, the floors are just more modern. But yeah, for the last couple hours I don't think I had any transports and I ended up just playing Survev.io and Terraria on my laptop. The State of Union Address was playing on the TV behind me, so I listened to that, too. And that was it.

I went home afterwards, watched YouTube, listened to music, ate some sushi, and made green beans on the stove because I was hungry for them. Then I watched an episode of Only Fools and Horses and fell asleep on the couch.

So today was probably a 5. Kind of boring.

2/13/26

Today was kind of eventful, compared to most of my days. I started out by getting up and getting ready for my mental health clinical, which was at Gibson Center today. I also drank a coffee and then took some ibuprofen and a muscle relaxant because my back was still hurting some today, but was not anywhere near what it was yesterday.

So I left for that and got there at 8 AM. It was me, Aastha, Ellie Kate, and Briana there today, so we met up in the parking lot and walked in together. We had to sit in the waiting room for like, 15 minutes before someone came to get us. That lady talked to us some in a small conference room, just telling us the rules and all that, then we got a little tour, and then we went to their morning meeting. This was kind of boring, they were just talking about some of the patients, where they were going, where they're coming from, that kind of stuff. Then we split up and Ellie and Briana went somewhere, while Aastha and I stayed in the meeting room. We got to see some of the people get their meds, so that was kind of interesting, but not really. One patient, Lindsay, had to take Narcan and see if she felt better, so we just sat in this room for half an hour seeing if her symptoms got better. And I think my muscle relaxant was making me tired, I forgot that was a side effect of those. So I kept drifting off to sleep in my chair. Eventually that was over and the lady we were with took us on a more in-depth tour, over to the rehab area. We were over there for a bit, a guy over there gave us a pretty comprehensive tour. The patients were watching some comedians on the TV. Then they got information that we shouldn't be over in this area because one of the patients was a SEMO student and it was a breach of contract or something. So we were evacuated out of there and went to a big group meeting afterwards with all these patients. In this meeting, they were all able to talk about drugs and alcohol and all this stuff. I kind of missed most of it because I was really sleepy during this. Apparently there was one guy at the meeting who hears voices that he thinks are from God, and he's schizophrenic, and was waving his hands around. The people from my class were talking about that in post-conference. I completely missed that. But yeah, after that meeting we were basically done, the lady there signed our paper, and we left.

I went to Kidd's afterwards, filled up with gas, got a sweet tea, and then went to Nana's. I think I probably just played Terraria or watched YouTube there. I've been really into Terraria lately. That's been my game of the month.

Post-conference was at 2:30, so I went to that at SEMO and we talked about our experiences at our clinical sites. Nothing much happened here.

I went home afterwards and didn't do much here either. I think I played more Terraria and laid on the heating pad for my back. We were planning to go out to eat tonight for Janell's birthday since we never celebrated it because mom and dad were sick. I was going to go with my dad back to town, but he was going to the gym beforehand, so I drove myself back to town. I actually stopped at Nana's, dropped my car off, and then my mom picked me up. She also dropped off a ton of groceries that she got, so I'm fully stocked up over there. Thanks mom!

So she picked me up and we went to pick Janell up, who was at her dorm taking a nap. After we got her, we drove to Olive's Pitaria, which is where she decided to go. We got there and my dad met us there soon after.

The restaurant was in a house, so it just looked like we were walking into a house. But it was actually really good. It was mainly Greek food, so there were gyros, falafel, hummus, all that kind of stuff. I ordered something called a "Oh my Shawarma Wrap" which was shawarma chicken, pickles, and garlic sauce in a wrap and a side of fries. And mine was quite delicious. My dad got a gyro, Janell got something called a falafelito, and I think my mom got shish tawook. My dad's took a little longer to come out than everyone else's so he was a little sad. But all of that food was very good. And for a Friday night, it wasn't too slow. There wasn't a wait or anything. My weird acid-reflux thing happened pretty bad when I ate my food to fast and I had to go to the bathroom and digest all of that. Then Janell also ordered a Dubai chocolate cheesecake slice, and she shared a couple of bites with me, and that was delicious, too. I've never had Dubai chocolate before, definitely recommend. So that place was really good. I also took the rest of Janell's burrito thing because she wasn't gonna take it to-go.

After that we went back to drop Janell off and then me. After my mom dropped me off, I was planning to put on Modern Family, just relax, enjoy my solitude like I always do, but then Grant from TKE texted me, asking if I want to go out with them. So I said sure, because I haven't been at TKE since I left. So I cracked open a beer to prepare a bit for this and played Roblox until time to go.

I left to go there at 9:30 and drank almost a whole Four Loko that I had in my fridge once I got there. Then as I was heading in and ran into Nyk in the parking lot and talked to him some. Then I went in and talked to Scott, Owen, Ryker, Grant, and Whitlow who were all in there. Then we went out a little after 10.

I went with Scott and he drove us to Hypno. There was not much at all going on at Hypno. I ordered a vodka lemonade because that's what everyone was ordering. And it was pretty good for 3 dollars. I was pretty awkward at ordering because I wanted to just order and pay for it there and not open a tab, because the last time I forgot to close it and got a 15 dollar charge from The Library. So we sat there a bit and talked, not much happened. Then Scott took us to The Library. There, I talked to Rachel and Abby who were there. Then I went back over to our group and talked to them. I didn't even order any drinks from here, but I was drunk at this point. The Four Loko was kicking in. For some reason, I was really wanting the guys to go talk to this group of girls, because they always say they will, but they don't. So I went up to them and started talking, and Larik came over (he was there too) and he pulled me back over. I don't know what came over me. Literally liquid courage, because why'd I do that. We left eventually and went back to 333. We talked outside for a good while, I talked to Scott and Whitlow for a good bit, a couple of drunk cigarettes were passed around, and Scott was talking about how much he loved Alysa Liu. Then we were winding down and I slept on the couch there, and that was my night.

So today was good. 8/10 maybe. Just because it felt filling.

2/3/26

Today I didn't have class because it was my OB clinical day and it was my off-week. So I slept in till around 11 AM. When I got up, I noticed the cat food I put out last night was gone now, and I actually saw the cat again, but it ran into the barn. I really hope that cat stays. So I didn't do much at all today, I just watched YouTube (quest series), ate my banana bread, cleaned dishes, swept the floor, won a Fortnite match, stuff like that. When my mom got off work, she brought me McDonald's, so I had a double cheeseburger, fries, nuggets, and sweet tea. My mom is sick with something now (hopefully not RSV) so she had on a mask and had a hoarse voice and stuff. Poor girl.

I went to work at 6:30 and it started out a little busy, lots of stuff from ER. I talked to Rylee some, she said she's going to start going to therapy again. There was this one crazy lady I had to move from ER named Kathy and a security guard girl had to come with me. Kathy kept yelling for Brittney and Robbie. She was just shouting at her max volume through the halls at 10 PM at night. And she'd tell me to stop pushing her and that she didn't want to go. It was pretty sad. I only did five transports today so I had some time to get some of my homework done, too.

I went back home afterwards and was going to start on my GDM diet assignment that is due tomorrow, but I fell asleep before I could start it.

So today was boring, but kinda nice just doing nothing. 3/10.